How I love Yama…
Yama is —for me— the
missingmoment when everything started. All the attraction between them built up until the perfect place where two people who couldn’t understand each other by words were forced to silence and to the inevitable understanding that came through gestures and bodies.
Fay coulnd’t hide himself behind words, because they were ineffective. And felt vulnerable, but also, some kind of free, in a world so disconnected to everything else of this journey. Remember that Ashura says that dragging them there was meant to cut the control FWR had on their journey? I think Fay sensed the absense of the dark shadow following them, the one for whom he was working. More free, more vulnerable, like having nothing else in the world… Nothing to restrain him to let go to the attraction he felt immediately for Kurogane, the one that made him behave with him like he’d never done with anyone else from the very start.
Kurogane had certainly noticed that Fay is beautiful. I just don’t think that Kurogane is the kind of man that pay any attention to details like beauty. He had always been interested by Fay, in his very guarded, very cautios, very curious way. I think that what sparkled the real attraction for him had been seeing Fay fight. Fight for real, watching his body move in the battlefield with his own, and having to relyonly on his movements to communicate. His body was honest. He could trust his body. His body was strong and amazing in battle, that’s something a warrior would find attractive. Fay’s presence became real, consitent, and gave body to all the interest, frustration and attraction that was there before, but Kurogane had still to notice.
They just needed this. And it built until the day they could’t hold all of this in their bodies anymore and a touch —innocent, even unintentional— set the fire to everything.